"한가지 말해두고 싶은건 우리들은 뭔가를 잃었다거나 한건 아니야. 괜찮아?
"one thing i want to point out is that it's not like we lost something. alright?

우리들은 아직 땅에 발을 붙이고 같은 산소를 마시고 있는거야.
we still have feet on the ground and are breathing the same oxygen.

각자, 변함없이 인생을 지내고 있는 어떤 일이라도 일어날수 있고, 어떤 일이 일어나지 않을지도 몰라.
we all live our lives whatsoever, and anything can happen, somethings may not happen.

하지만 나는 뭐라도 일어난다는 쪽에 걸겠어.
but i will bet on that something will happen.

촌구석의 알 수 없는 뚱보어린애였던 내가 지금은 사람들앞에서 입을 뻐끔거리고 있는것이 나에게 있어서는 확증이야.
an unknown fatso from the country side who i was is now moving my lips in front of big crowds, and that's my evidence.

Thanx! 그리고, hello! 이걸로 가는거야.
thanks! and, hello! we'll go like this.

스피드를 내어서 팍팍 가자구. 따라올수 있는 녀석들만 데리고 가자고."
let's go on with full throttle. take only the ones who can keep up with us."

ㅡ hide


hide of x-japan. i'm with him. i will keep up with him.
are you with me?

been busy. stressed, broken.
working now, until school starts.

got request to put my pictures up. here it is.

i was hella bored yesterday, so bought myself a model kit. haven't done it in about 13 years; loved to do it before that.
the cost of kit rised from about a quarter to $30, but the kit this time was a nice gundam! with a katana! took me about 4 hours to complete, with dull tools and no coloring kit, but it came out satisfactory at the end.
it was good for a dull hands of 13 years.

i guess some people do come here. and maybe i should watch what i put up... i'll update the late ones today.

mommy's birthday. i burned about 20 cd's for her of korean music.
we barbequed outside at the park abut it was too windy, so we just brought the meat inside.
grandma's little brother came with his wife and we watched tv and played a 'game'.
no further comments today.

spending my days watching movies and scratching myself lying on a cool floor.

drove around the hot sun. sure felt like it.
we went to a casino in jacksonville which was like 4 hour drive away. sizzling!!!
dad, aunt, and i lost 20 a piece to slot machines in the beginning, and grandma a lot more.
then i sat at the blackjack table for the first time in my life, and won $50! it was fun. more fun than cellphone blackjack.
at the end of the day, grandma broke even, i made $30, and rest, didn't play much.

the engagement party day. to summarize, the food sucked, atmosphere sucked, and i had to be enslaved as camera/video man. they should have chosen a better place for the party.
the good part was, my uncle is finally engaged or soon to be married, and...
i got to go shopping earlier in the day. yeah, that was the best part.

took 20 hours drive to get to mom's shop. dad always gets scared when i drive.
90mph is not that fast on an open highway...
when i arrived at mom's shop, i found a dead deer on the side of the road.
it has stiffend hard and drawing bugs near it. it was... big. it was pregnant.
i found myself amazed by the big animal and kept looking at it. i don't know what lured me to stare at it for 5 minutes. it was just luring me. either death, or the deer. or the dead dear.

was trying to take a nap. ray called me.
'let's hang.' 'it's a weekday, dude. are you fired or something?' 'holiday tomorrow.' 'o.'
i drove down to surrey, and saw a ray looking guy with funky hair. he seems to be in adjusting period, living all alone.i don't remember what i thought then. probably just 'never get haircut in surrey'. and that i am still a little kid. yeah. that's it.